AAARRRGGGHHH

Have you ever been so frustrated with something you don't know what other course of action to take other than walking away? I have. I am. I'm trying. Lord, how do I remedy a situation I don't even want to be in? All I want is to fast forward through time so I can get to a point where I'm "ready." I'm so sick of this growing and stretching and pain, all I want is to move forward, and right now it's a snail's pace! Walking away gives you perspective, but I don't want to walk anymore. I'm trying to press through, I'm trying to follow, and I only get so far before I, like a dog, return to my vomit. It's such a graphic image and yet it is all we do. We leave shame and sin behind for a moment and seconds later I come back like I can't even remember what it was. WHY ME GOD??? WHY NOW? What are you trying to accomplish in me? Is it working?

But I know you are there, and through your faithfulness you will make me strong. You will carry me through, and no longer will my enemies triumph over me. I will dance around the throne of the Lord forever, even in sorrow I will rejoice, as I dwell in the house of the Lord for eternity.