Let me preface this blog by saying this about myself. I'm a confident guy, I try not to be arrogant or cocky, but I am confident in a few things. Number 1...I can talk to people. I don't mean that in a crazy way, I just mean I can relate to people and unless I'm missing the point I feel I can generally connect with anyone. Number 2...I feel good being in front of people. If you let me go, I'll go. Now these two things for me can be dangerous as well, number 1 because I have a tendency to over talk things. I keep going and going and if people need to vent then I block them out. The second one is a problem for similar reasons, if you give me 5 I'll take 10, if you give me 20 I'll take 25...see what I mean? It just kind of keeps going. So I am trying to harness these things and use them but at times it can be a bit difficult. This isn't really the point of this blog though, pretty much all that to say, my main idea is this...I struggle with pride.
It is of my personal opinion that most people do, but also that pride is the most dangerous of all sins. It blocks us from seeing that we need God, it prevents us from confessing sin, it makes us think we can be God, and even when we have God we tend to take credit for His hand in our lives. So, essentially, this is public enemy number 1.
Number 2, I'm a people pleaser. I don't care for tension. When something has gone wrong in a relationship I want to fix it right away, and I'll do whatever it takes. If I'm really upset I may have to walk away and calm down, but tension seems so unnecessary and such an easy fix if somebody will step up to the plate.
Keeping those two things in mind, mixed together they make for an extremely difficult time maintaining relationships. When there is tension I tend to ask what I did wrong so I can try and fix it...but generally when people tell me what I've done wrong the pride kicks in and I start to think, well let's not put it all on me here little Mr./Ms. perfect!! You have some faults of your own so let's talk about those. THIS IS NOT GOOD!!! Haha, it has never and will never work for me. God has opened my eyes and is working on me, but this ultimate combination of wanting to fix the problem and somehow thinking that I have no problem in the matter is not a good tool. I'm not sure why God made me this way but I'm certain He has some reason.
So, if you read this and you have been or will be offended by my words in a situation like this...I apologize. I'm learning, I'm in repair, and I'm a work in progress. Hopefully you can forgive me and realize all the bad things you've done to get our relationship to this point. Like I said, I'm working on it :)
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Well said. Haha :)
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